My invisble letter to her

I'm finally free of you. 

Um, okay.  You're over me.  That's good to hear!

You'll never leave my heart for good because no one you truly love does

LMAO! I'm sorry, but I have to laugh at this.  Truly loved me? If you truly loved me, you wouldn't have told me to check myself into a mental hospital because I had an anxiety attack on a public bus! And I still remember what you said after, "You know, Emilie Autumn made it seem like it was bad but it's probably not!".  I needed you to calm me down.  I NEEDED you THERE! Fuck, I was better off going to Michael (Ghosty).  Fuck, why didn't I go to him instead?! I even thought about it but I didn't because I figured he had his own life and his own problems.  I was better off with him. 
  I regret not doing this. 

 and obviously you're still around

Yeah, I am.  Because you told me it was okay if I stuck around the forum. 


 but you broke my heart

I could say that I'm sorry but truth be told, I'm not sorry for cheating on you with him.  If I could go back, I'd do it all over again and not change one thing and still choose him! Because I rather be with him and BE HAPPY than pretending to be happy with you whilst longing for something great to come along and he dropped in my life JUST when I needed him.  And I think I found something real with him.  

 and I have finally found more capable hands to put it in to help fix it since I clearly couldn't by myself. 

Good for you.  I'm happy that someone out there in this great big bright world can handle your crazy ass! Because I could not.  You made me feel stupid and made me google stuff to figure out what the bloody fuck you were blabbering on about.  And that was every day! Your music tastes? Never matched mine.  And I wasn't even interested in the music you were into.  I hate musicals.  Your "stories" and "fan-fiction"? Lol.  Never once read them through.  I skimmed, read the middle, got bored and skipped to the end and then messaged you with vague comments about what happened, throwing random names around that I glanced at.  "________ is a lovely name! And omg! That ending! *Fake gasp!* Oh noooooo! Why did it end like that!" Or  "_____ is a lovely name! D'awww, that ending.  It was so sweet!"

Gag me with a fucking spoon -.-

I mean, fuck, you had a weird obsession with serial killers! And you terrified me one night (telling me a story about this couple who drugged one of her sisters, raped her then killed her o.o).  That made me have second thoughts about being with you.  I started an OkCupid dating profile the next day. 

And your sick and twisted fantasy scared me away as well.  I mean, who in their right mind wants to WILLINGLY go through that? What, do you go through dark alley's and corners, hoping someone would grab you, pin you down and rape you just so you know what it feels like?

NO!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!! NO!!!!!! NO!!!!!!! You're fucking insane and twisted and disgusting.   I think the person who needs to be locked (with the key thrown) up is you.  Seriously.  No woman, in their right minds, walks the streets at night, HOPING and WISHING for that to happen to them. 

and have been relishing in your misbegotten love in the meantime. 

Oh and relishing I have! The entire month of December and even 'til this day! *Shifty eyes*

 But you're wrong in one thing.  "Misbegotten".  I've never made a clearer decision in my life (so far).  I've never felt more alive and just...happy.  And I fell for him, naturally.  With the little help of music and just taking the time to know each other.  As well as loving the company shared.

Unlike how you and I were forced together by a raging bitch under the username of "Dark_Spiral".  Why did I let myself be thrown into that relationship? I do not know.  Flattery, I suppose? Hmm.  That doesn't feel right.  I'll go ahead and take option B.  "Blind and foolish!".  Ah, that feels about right!

I don't know if you have even thought about me much during our time apart 

Yes but it was only to compare how much better he was for me than you ever were.  And why I was with you and even that thought was short-lived.  I never missed you and what we "had". 

or if you even care what's happened to me since then

Mmmm, no, not really, no :)  But keep thinking I did if that makes you sleep at night. 

 but I'm finally letting you go.  I can say this at last and truly mean it. Goodbye, for now and forever.

Adios, you nutter! >:D Please, for my sake, let me go.  Because I don't want to be held onto by some woman who DOES deserve to be in a mental hospital. 

I only feel bad for your current girlfriend and many others.

I don't really have any last words.  All that I've ever wanted to say has been said (revealed your dark secret that isn't so secret anymore.  Whoops!)

I'm not going to say, "I miss you!/I'll miss you!" because that's a damn lie. 

Oh! I do have one last thing to say....

I came across a post of yours that a beloved cat of yours, was missing? Did I read that right? *scratches head*

You know, that is ONE SMART LITTLE KITTY! I'm so damn happy for him! Run! Run! Ruuuuuuun, as fast and as far away as possible from Bethany!

Goodbye, Bethany, goooooooooooooodbye! >:)