Fucking shit

Jen Foster-She

It's 5:44 AM and I'm still awake.  Mainly due to nerves but mostly because I woke up seven at night.

Of course I am fucking terrified right now.  I am going to be wide awake during the procedure.

I was going to try and mentally prepare myself beforehand but no matter how hard I tried to shrug it off, the nerves kept tugging.

So, I have just decided to just basically say "Fuck it!" and go through with it.  Nerves or not, I'm just going go with the fucking flow.

Talking with Bethany distracted me but it didn't calm me down.

Music is helping.

My laser eye surgery isn't until 3:30 PM.

I'm not quite sure if I should go to sleep now or stay up.

Although sleep is of course calling my name.  Not quite why NOW instead of many hours ago.

I think I'll go to sleep now.  It's either get a good shut eye or risk falling asleep on the slab-I mean table.

I have decided to just think about my novel while my eye is being operated on.

So, I'm going to sleep now and I'll come back once I'm healed and I'll report what happened.